Pushing in From the Other Side

[penfold_x]

Over the past six months, on three separate occasions, I've dreamed of an alternate universe in which Angel ended differently.

Not a universe in which the show was real but rather, a universe in which Wheadon/rightsholders made an Angel film for theatrical release (similar to Serenity) after the end of the series. In the first dream, I had to move heaven and earth to get out of work on time to see the first showing, which was ridiculously crowded (apparently, the film was a hit). Because it's my subconscious, Wesley was pretty instantly resurrected, and the fang gang went on to battle evil in an appropriately cinematic fashion.

In the second dream, there was a follow-on made-for-tv movie in which a few of the regular cast members were replaced by other actors. In both cases, I can't remember anything of the plot; my angst in the first dream was more about trying to find a theatre that had room for me. The third dream--last night--was all about my overwhelming need to understand why Alexis Denisof wasn't included made-for-tv movie. Was it scheduling? Illness? I needed to know. My dream-self haunted Google and pelted gimmelgirl with questions.

I have zero idea why my brain keeps returning to Angel. I haven't thought about the series in a while, and it's been more than five years since I pursued fanworks or re-watched episodes. Generally, I think of dreams as the tumblr of recent thoughts; prior to sleeping last night, my brain was focused on 1) linguistics and the transition from Middle English to Modern English; 2) Divergence!Claudius and Eibhlin, and 3) Netflix's terrible collection of apocalypse movies. Where does this weird alternate universe come from? Why does it keep returning?

Comments

[roguedemon.livejournal.com]

I love your subconscious! Much better than the way the show ended.:-p I love Wesley, and I hated what they did with his character at the end. Anything that includes more Alexis Denisof is fine with me. :)))

[penfold-x.livejournal.com]

Yesssssssssss. In my mind, the series AUs around Fredless. I watched S3-5, and there were things that I enjoyed, but it was really hard for me to see Wesley estranged and then essentially never reconciled.

[kawuli.livejournal.com]

I like this better than my dreams lately, which have involved sorghum varieties, negotiations with my advisor, and assorted other work panic. Clearly time for a vacation (18 days and yes I am counting).

[penfold-x.livejournal.com]

Ugh, I had anxiety dreams about law school for years after graduating. Hopefully you have kicked these in the butt??

[kawuli.livejournal.com]

Haven't had any lately, so vacation's doing the trick apparently!

On the other hand I did have a Jessica Jones dream the other night and I'm not sure that's better....